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Just finished up rushing the Marketing Report. YAY I had fun doing it and I think the final compilation is pretty awesome but I started to feel at a loss after I finished it.

I have 4 exams to study for and I have a total of 7 days left effectively. And I don't know where to start. yay me.

HELP. SOS.

I have been getting strange feelings of nothingness. Like I don't feel like I'm anything, or that I belong anywhere. It's been very very strange.

I have never done so many surveys and personality tests before. Completing research studies credits for both MPW and Marketing has been quite an experience.

Taking all these tests made me reflect. Of course, I don't put 100% effort in answering the questions or thinking about how I should answer the questions but somehow, doing so many personality tests and all kinda affected me.

I start to doubt myself again.

Or maybe it's just a bad day.

Or maybe I really do have a sucky sad life.

I wonder what motivates people. I wonder what goes through others' minds. I wonder a lot. I wonder how come people can seem like something they are not. Useless wondering though. Wondering gets me no answers. I need to be more of a do-er. It makes life happier and easier to live.

I need to write here more.

Pardon my incoherence. It happens when I'm not in the best of moods.

I totally forgot about cleaning and changing my surgery wounds. Because I haven't even had the time to spare to stay at home to ice my knee ONE TIME to bring down the swelling, which I was supposed to do a few times a day.

WED - POST SURGERY DAY ONE
Discharged at 1.00pm. Went to school for MA meeting at 5.00pm.

THU - POST SURGERY DAY TWO
Lessons till 645pm. Mad rush to Dempsey Hill, Rain Restaurant & Bar for BONDUE Appreciation Night and 4th Exco Investiture. Did a sub standard speech, but I know I'll get enough chances to improve.

FRI - POST SURGERY DAY THREE
Morning lesson. Finally got to chill a bit with the Best Friend @ our favourite Thai restaurant. Council Elections/AGM @345pm. RedBull Launch Party at night. It was a blast. The Crippled (also know as ME) danced with one good leg.

And hence, the result of all these, is the stubborn and growing swell on my knee and a potentially unclean wound (forgot all about cleaning wound and changing dressing at a clinic!).

Clearly, CRISPY is taking over my life.

Just got back from SAC (Student Association Council) 3d2n retreat. SHAGGED. And it's not the physically demanding kinda shagged, it was super mentally taxing. We basically think and talk for more than 10 hours in a day.

But it was still fun and enjoyable la. I now have a new Daddy (Russell!) and a new scandal (Anthony Pentium I). Haha : ) So much nonsense as usual with SMU camps.

I'm having my knee operation (scope) @ SGH coming Tues. Really, the worst part of it all is having to make a speech on crutches. CHUI pls.

Next week is crazy. I don't think I have time to breathe. HAHA : )

Hobbling around school hasn't been too enjoyable. Especially when I have friends who like to imitate my super unglam style of walking and thinking it is oh-so-funny. ROARS.

But thanks to my schizophrenic friend who made my life better with the sponsored cab rides and lending arm as walking stick, the troubled knee is less of a pain. Thanks Kelvin : ) Stop nagging about the painkillers though. And stop talking to yourself, you're really developing schizophrenia. Haha.

Old school dramas on late night Mediacorp teevee channel rocks. Haha does anyone else watch them like I do?

I need to stop being dark and twisty. I wanna watch Greys 4 now now now!

it's sad and scary to watch someone else live life the exact same way you do. mostly sad.

you see the flaws in yourself, you see the mistakes you would make, sometimes you see the brilliance you have, occasionally you think you're full of all that. but mostly, you see how sad you are.

I've been watching Grey's Anatomy. I've been watching myself on show.

I'm Meredith Grey.

p/s: On another note, these days have been sucky. I only look forward to Thursdays MA lessons. THAT IS SAD. It's been so sucky that my Bfriend started using the Fword. : )

CCA Day was damn tiring. Heh check out Kin Seng when he cannot move and talk. I think I prefer him like that, mute and motionless.

Melvin and I then hung out in town a bit. We sat in Starbucks talking about stuff and him playing with his new camera and all the cool functions.

Freshmen Bash @ MOS was crazily packed too. Arrived at Clarke Quay to a super long queue and when we finally got in, watched the pageant. Got sabo-ed to play in the stage games cos Tarn was the emcee. Yeah they said they were looking for people wearing red, and I kana when I was wearing a white dress. -_-

Anyway, partied the night away with Bena and Jolin. Photos below with the two Indos I know best in school.

With Alvin Mustopo! Heh like my white dress?

With Lukas, my favourite Indo boy : )

Of course, not forgetting Richard : ) He said we both looked like angels that night, cos we were both wearing white? When I looked at this picture, it just looked super familiar. Then I realised, we kinda took a picture with very similar pose and smiles.

Haha very similar feel right?

Yay, should be going Bintan this coming weekend. : ) getaway from stupid school!

Wow the last time i blogged was like eons ago. Opps, I don't really know what caused this hiatus but well, I'm back : )

This summer holidays have been so so packed and eventful, it's quite incredible. The number of camps I attended this summer holidays is alarming and I have since turned from a Chinese to a Malay in terms of skin colour. Hosted a few events too and had lots of fun doing emcee-ing. Not forgetting the newest addition to the family, the little bundle of joy at home, a little Shih Tzu puppy!

Joining FTB as a facilitator has definitely been damn enriching and meaningful. I think we all learnt quite a bit through all the training and camps, but I found it rather hard to be the "right" faci at the real camp itself. It was really far more important to protect the freshies' experience instead of being eager to preach whatever we had learnt and I'm glad I faci-ed the way I did. I thank God for the great group I had and I'm glad they really enjoyed the camp.

With Group 113 guys after tunneling.

With Group 113 girls after tunneling!

The FABS at RUN 4! The best best mock camp group ever.

Run 4 RETROS : ) we rocked it

Group 113 at Rafting : ) my all time fave activity!

Speaking of my little baby at home, the super adorable puppy! The Boy and I drove down to Pasir Ris farmway one day 2 months ago and he decided to buy this puppy. But he forgot he had 4 big dogs at home which made it impossible to house the new Shih Tzu. So now the puppy belongs to my homeee : )

This is Machi before grooming. haha with the hair all covering the face

She's damn cute la : )

My grandma's birthday celebration

The girls with the grandma : ))

I'm having school blues, anyone with same sentiments? I should make it a note to update this blog. Cos reading back on past entries of my own blog is damn thereupetic and fun : )

Meanwhile, it's damn fun to watch Sze Hui on teevee on the 9 o'clock show as the school girl ah lian! haha I get a kick out of watching it. haha

Just some photos from the 2D1N FTB facilitators' workshop camp. Had damn a lot of fun and I was super super high for the two days. SHIOK. I have more photos coming from the FTB mock camp, but that will come later : )

Okay first acitivty was the Marble Pipeline, in which the team had to transport a marble, with each of us holding PVC pipes only, for a distance to a pail which was tied high up on a pole. Okay some photos..

Me standing up there, on Winfrid and Samuel's arms. My two super stable bases! : )

Haha, this was taken when I was standing high up there on two guys' arms, reaching for the pail. I named myself the "Latecomer" cos I came straight from camp in Camelot and was like 2 hours late.

Okay the next activity was a pretty simple one which we completed. But the highlight of it was the photo above. HAHA. I was wearing one blindfold as a bra, and one as a hairband. My ability to make a fool and then laugh at myself so that people are happy too is AMAZING. The stupid self-degrading things I do. HAHA

Okay, then it was some crossing the river with bricks activity. This is my hero Winfrid, piggybacking me across with bricks tied to his feet. After that, I promised him a lifetime of unlimited jokes. Winzeeeeeee, he's the man : )

The above two pictures was from another activity. It was supposed to be someone else carrying the pole in my place but an emergency happened so I was called in to take his place. And these two photos are just there to illustrate how SHORT I am, compared to the ones who we agreed on to carry the pole. I WAS DAMN SAD after looking at these pictures. And to further illustrate the point, Farhan (our senior facilitator) took this picture below, of my feet. I was desperately trying to tiptoe so I can accomodate to them putting the pole on their shoulders. ROAR.

At night, we played the Polar Bear game, something SMU students apparently enjoy alot. HAHA i was the freaking useless Witchdoctor, who stupidly killed the Hunter at a very early stage. Haha if you even know what I'm babbling about : )

A group photo of the various villagers who "died" and were haunting the village. HAHA the ghosts rock.

We were playing some filler games, in which I lost like shit. Cos I have a small hand with small fingers and I am never good at concentration when I'm high and happy.

Speaking of which, I lost at Yee-HAA and they made me write my name with my ass and chest as forfeit on the glass facing the public road outside. -_- and they have footages of the so-called "Geylang Fishtank" performance, both front and back view. KNS. Well, at least Bena thinks it's quite cool and sexy compared to Iris' forfeit at the bus stop, which Bena named it so "uncoool" HAHA

Another filler game in which the whole team was made to stand on a canvas and then we had to turn the whole canvas over without anyone touching the ground. And the only other thing we had was a chair. HAHA I was initially squashed between all the bodies on our first attempt (which failed). On the second attempt, I cleverly volunteered to join the VERY CRAMPED CHAIR (with the three biggest sized teammates). BAD MOVE. I was hanging on to like one-tenth of the sitting surface and my thighs were gonna cramp up.

Anyway, a celebratory photo when we completed it : )

Yes, that's my damn fun group. Our name is Siew Mai on Double Decker Bus. Don't ask why. HAHA

Rissy and I with Farhan. This photo was meant to be a birthday greeting photo to BENA. : )))

More photos coming up from the FTB Mock Camp. HAHA as usual, more embarrassing stuff of me in action!

BANGS!

Cut my hair at Chapter2 @ Bugis today. Richard came to accompany me and then we had out little catch-up session at TCC. Eh, more like cam-whore session : ))))

Check out my new hair. I'M STILL NOT USED TO IT -_- HAHA

My bangs nice nottt?

The CamWhores ReUnite!

So, bangs better or my old slant fringe?

Our attempts at acting cute.

Outside the toilet. mirror shot.

I had so much fun with Richard. Though we didnt have much time, it was nice catching up : ))) yes before i go BOOK-IN into camp again.

On the MRT with the best camwhore and emo partner ever.

Then it was off to VIVO to meet Kelvin, while we waited for Iris to knock off and have dinner together. Kelvin treated us to dinner at HongKong KimGary Cafe. Great food great company : ))) Though Kelvin is still as irritating as ever and Manfred was irritaing for the period of time he came along with Iris, dinner was fantastic. I missed Iris so much! and even though Kelvin is an irritant, I missed him too : ))

With Kelvin Sim the idiot whose favourite hobby seems to be irritating the hell outta me.

With the bestfriend. The Tiger Beer Pi Jiu Mei. HEHE.

Goodbye civilization. I'll see you again coming Friday. Will be at camp from tmr morning to Friday afternoon. I was supposed to book-in just now at 10pm, don't ask what happened! GRRR

I just got back from my 3D2N camp! : ))))) Was earning money being a group instructor to a bunch of sec2 Whitley kids for those outdoor adventure camps kind. HAHA damn fun but super tiringg.

This was my first time, without training and any experience being an instructor so my group and the other group sorta merged most of the time so that the other instructor could guide me along. I think i learnt stuff pretty fast la, I'm go ingfor another 4D3N camp next tuesday!

This was groups 3&4 combined with the two instructors. HEH. my group was the super pai kia group. One girl with the stud below the lower lip, one little boy with dyed spiked hair, a few cheeky malay boys. Naughty, but they were still a fun bunch!!!

Another group picture of us!

All the camp instructors. haha my oraange instructor shirt was WET cos Melvin and I got sabo-ed on the last night - campfire night. Got a LARGE tub of detergent water splashed onto us! HAHA.

Anyway, some other photos which I didnt get a chance to post up cos blogger was being a bugger. Iris' birthday celebration at Sushi Tei/Pacific Coffee @ Vivo.

The er.. "birthday" gang. HEH
Us again : )))))

Photos from Robin's 21st Surprise party!!

Natapa, Me, Melvin, on our way to Clementi.

Birthday Boy and I. HAPPYY 21ST!

The male and female leads of the night : )))))

Wooo.. K-box for 7 hours!!! haha we went at 2pm and was supposed to end at 7pm, but somehow they didnt chase us out until 9pm!

It was a super super shiok kbox session for the 4Rs. Richard, Rissy, RiBena, Ruhua. HAHA

Haha, we were SUPER high singing the last two songs. jumping up and down on the sofa and screaming as though it was our concert. DAMN FRICKING SHIOK!

Haha then it was Iris' Birthday Surprise on Friday night! Haha I named it my Mission 0505 : ) I made a 12 minuted video clip through the night, with messages from Richard, Bena, Jue Lin, Uni, Anna and me!!! And MTV of me playing the bday song on keyboard and another MTV of melvin singing the bday song. HAHA damn fun : ))

Risssyyy, you likeedd the video righttttttt?? : )))

The people of the night with the IRIS pose : ))))